I just heard that one of my colleagues is pregnant. It is a colleague I got along with her until I got pregnant the second time and then she started to avoid me because she also wanted to get pregnant and apparently everyone knows about the this pregnancy of hers except me. She has been very rude and cold towards me and I just ignored it to be polite and to keep my side clean.
The fucking bitch. I can understand that she wanted to keep it quiet until 12 weeks, but I am not fucking stupid and when I realised everyone was whispering behind my back I put two and two together. Now we have an atmosphere, and I fucking hate it. Seriously I am fine amongst pregnant woman, so they shouldn't’t go around treating me like I have leprosy or something.
And I know it sounds childish, but now I hope I am not pregnant because I don’t want to be pregnant with her. I’ve felt like this before when I thought that I couldn't’t conceive, but since then I have worked through pregnancy jealousy, but this time I just feel fucking lousy!
I have lots of pregnant friends, so why is this affecting me like this???
I am going for a drive now, I need to get away from this shit hole place.
People! How can someone be so STUPID??? I don't even know you well and think you lovely and understanding ....
ReplyDeleteHope the drive helped!
Don't feel guilty about how feel, you are like this because SHE made it personal, not because she is pregnant.
ReplyDeleteDon't let the bitch upset you!
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People are either totally ignorant of the fact that their actions can hurt somebody else, or they are so bloody vindictive and sadistic that they actually take pleasure from it.
ReplyDeleteI am not going to say she shouldn't upset you, because she already did, but I do hope that you will feel better..