Thursday, February 19, 2009

A month ago today

Well a month ago today I was lying in a private room in a private hospital exhausted after giving birth for 12 hours....

(BTW - I have been wondering about the words "giving birth" alot lately... if for instance your baby is dead when it's born should you say "I was giving death (instead of birth)?"
It sound a bit harsh, I know, but really, I want to know, what are the correct words?)

So anyway, a month ago today I was lying there trying to wake up from the nightmare. I couldn't comprehend exactly what had happened. It was a blur. I kept thinking all will be okay and that I will have a baby someday, but you know what? I WANT THAT BABY!!!!

The one I saw, the one I touched, the one I already loved so much. I want only HER.

Oh, how I sometimes miss her so much..

Goodbye, my sweet Hayleigh, say "Hi" to Jesus for me

2 comments:

  1. Oh Mandy, I am sure that Hayleigh will ask Jesus to look after you and soon bless you once again.

    You are in my houghts through this difficult time. xxx

    ReplyDelete
  2. Hi Mandy

    You did indeed give "birth" to your little girl and you deserve to be called Mommy. Nobody can take that away from you because she lives on in your heart.


    xxxx

    ReplyDelete