Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Oh my word, I stopped counting!!

When did that happen??? I can't believe it. I was just reading Irene's blog and saw that she was 21 weeks, and then it struck me -I don't know how far along I would have been. Right after the labour I kept track each week to know exactly when Hayleigh would have been viable to live but somewhere in between the days and weeks that have passed, I stopped counting!!! It feels horrible. It feels as though I have already forgotten her. I feel like a bad mommy.

I just counted the weeks and I would have been at 28 weeks.. I cannot believe my whole life changed so suddenly. It's only been a month.

1 comment:

  1. Mandy - you haven't forgotten her and you are still a mommy. She will always live on in your heart no matter how quietly.
    Don't place the extra burden of blame on your shoulders - its just not fair to you as you don't deserve it.
    xxx

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