Okay, enough about blogging privacy and blogging etiquette and onto other matters. AF is still overdue, so no surprise visits from her yet. I did another HPT last night and still negative, so no reason for her to be absent.
We also had SIL's daughter's 1st birthday party on Saturday and it was a bit hard for me at first, but I stayed cool, kept calm and didn't get all teary eyed and soppy, so it went okay. There were 6 children in total and it was hard to be celebrating her birthday when I once pictured myself attending the party with a huge belly and swollen feet. I sms'ed Maria throughout the afternoon and it helped me to a lot to talk to her. Especially when everyone else were talking about their babies most of the time. The party was low key, but with layed tables, lots of pink decorations and party favours and a gift for each guest. True SIL style. (refer to previous post about not elaborating too much).
When we came home from the party DH said he was feeling very "broeis" and that if AF was absent due to a pregnancy he would be very happy. (Please note this is the man who wouldn't come near me (sorry no pun intended) without contraception because THE WISE DR. F SAID TO WAIT 3 MONTHS!!) Shame, he is also feeling the loss and to see all his family and friends with babies is very hard for him too. We keep up a good front in front of all the in-laws but when we get home, we let go and we feel terrible, cheated and broken. I just sometimes get the slightest idea that some people enjoy seeing us hurt and they try to make it worse by kind of rubbing it in our faces, but lets leave it at that. Hear no evil, Speak no evil, See no evil.
I posted a pic above of the birthday girl sitting on another friend's lap. That's my arm in the background, for those of you who were wondering...HeHe. The other photo is SIL and her daughter and SIL's friend and her daughter.
Hope those of you who are pregnant (ex-FC gals) are not too uncomfortable yet!! There is not much time left.
We also had SIL's daughter's 1st birthday party on Saturday and it was a bit hard for me at first, but I stayed cool, kept calm and didn't get all teary eyed and soppy, so it went okay. There were 6 children in total and it was hard to be celebrating her birthday when I once pictured myself attending the party with a huge belly and swollen feet. I sms'ed Maria throughout the afternoon and it helped me to a lot to talk to her. Especially when everyone else were talking about their babies most of the time. The party was low key, but with layed tables, lots of pink decorations and party favours and a gift for each guest. True SIL style. (refer to previous post about not elaborating too much).
When we came home from the party DH said he was feeling very "broeis" and that if AF was absent due to a pregnancy he would be very happy. (Please note this is the man who wouldn't come near me (sorry no pun intended) without contraception because THE WISE DR. F SAID TO WAIT 3 MONTHS!!) Shame, he is also feeling the loss and to see all his family and friends with babies is very hard for him too. We keep up a good front in front of all the in-laws but when we get home, we let go and we feel terrible, cheated and broken. I just sometimes get the slightest idea that some people enjoy seeing us hurt and they try to make it worse by kind of rubbing it in our faces, but lets leave it at that. Hear no evil, Speak no evil, See no evil.
I posted a pic above of the birthday girl sitting on another friend's lap. That's my arm in the background, for those of you who were wondering...HeHe. The other photo is SIL and her daughter and SIL's friend and her daughter.
Hope those of you who are pregnant (ex-FC gals) are not too uncomfortable yet!! There is not much time left.
My heart bleeds for you, it really does. You are so incredibly brave!
ReplyDeleteNice arm Mands! lol!
ReplyDeleteI can just imagine it must've been terrible for you. It is very nice of Hubby to comfort you and to also talk about his feelings and for the 2 of you to work things out together. I supose it must really help a lot.
Thanks for the well wishes! xxx