I feel like taking a break

I feel like taking a break. A break from infertility. I want to go somewhere where infertility doesn't exist. I read through the forum and the blogs everyday and it just makes me exhausted. I feel a kind of numbness after I've been on the boards. So I think I am going to take a break. I will still be blogging but not about infertility and when I feel up to it I will look at the forum but for now I want my life to be like this:

- I want to live again, without planning for pregnancy in my head the whole time

- I want to go onto the pill, so that my mind can't decieve me with pregnancy symptoms

- I want to have normal cycles

- I want to loose weight

- I want to excercise more regularly

- I want to laugh

- I want to focus on something else

- I want to forget

So my plan is to still go see Dr Fourie, tell him about Dr V and Dr V's advice. Hear what he says.

Oh and I also phoned his receptionist and told her that I had been in contact with Dr V and that he recommends a medicated cycle with Letrazole & Menopur. I asked whether he would do such a cycle if I asked specifically for it and what the costs would be and she said he charges for a consultation, one scan and the the costs of the meds. Which will be R205 per ampule and I wil probably need 3 ampules and R290 for the Letrazole. So all in all if I do a cycle here in Welkom it would cost me R1900.

But, as I said I am a bit tired of infertility at the moment, so I think I'm going to put it at the back of my mind until the end of July.