Guess what girls???? I am sooooooooo excited!!!!!!! (Picture me jumping up and down every time I think about this!!!)
I had my appointment with Dr F this morning. I showed him the test results I did for Dr V and he suggested we try Clomid (A Seriously big WTF??? moment - this is the same doctor who once told me I was too fertile for Clomid and the likes) and FSH injectables and then try making our babe the old fashioned way. I start Clomid on Thursday (beware readers I might just turn into Clomid bitch), I will then have my first shot on Friday and the second one on Sunday. I go back for my CD10 scan next Tuesday and then I get my trigger shot either next Friday or Saturday. We then have the whole weekend to introduce hubbies sperm to my egg/s. (We will not be participating in any braais, rugby games or other social events, because we will be "busy")
I am super excited!!!!!
PS for those who are insulted by my newbie barbie excitement, catch a hike ladies because I am going to be jumping for joy at the end of the month when I get my BFP after our FIRST medicated cycle!!!!!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
The nicest thing ANYBODY has EVER done for me
I got a package in the post today....
I had tears in my eyes because it is the nicest thing anybody has ever done for me. My fellow infertility friend and internet sister, Leslie, sent me a gorgeous album and lots of beautiful scrap booking goodies so that I can make an album of all Hayleigh's things. She put so much effort and and love into it. I could just feel how much she cared as I opened it. Leslie has been there for me, during this journey and she has always managed to support and understand me.
Leslie, thank you so much for this wonderful gift and for the handwritten note. It means so much to me. You have touched my heart and you have made me realise that there are people out there who really truly understand what it means to yearn for a child and that there are great lasting friendships that can be built over miles of distance, and mean so much more than the friendships we have with people we see every day. I will always think of you when I look at the album.
I pray that God will bless you soon with the baby you so much yearn for and richly deserve. If ever there was someone who would be a great mommy, it is you. I can just see/feel it in the way you have been there for me.
Lots of love to you my friend. Live strong.
I had tears in my eyes because it is the nicest thing anybody has ever done for me. My fellow infertility friend and internet sister, Leslie, sent me a gorgeous album and lots of beautiful scrap booking goodies so that I can make an album of all Hayleigh's things. She put so much effort and and love into it. I could just feel how much she cared as I opened it. Leslie has been there for me, during this journey and she has always managed to support and understand me.
Leslie, thank you so much for this wonderful gift and for the handwritten note. It means so much to me. You have touched my heart and you have made me realise that there are people out there who really truly understand what it means to yearn for a child and that there are great lasting friendships that can be built over miles of distance, and mean so much more than the friendships we have with people we see every day. I will always think of you when I look at the album.
I pray that God will bless you soon with the baby you so much yearn for and richly deserve. If ever there was someone who would be a great mommy, it is you. I can just see/feel it in the way you have been there for me.
Lots of love to you my friend. Live strong.
My family
The handsome hunter...
My super sexy hero
My two babies, they just love to snuggle!
Aren't they just gorgeous?Monday, July 20, 2009
Monday Weigh In
Starting Weight: 87 kg
Current Wieght: 87 kg
Goal Weight: 70 kg
Progress: 0 kg
As you can see, no progress. Okay, Okay I have to admit I was a very bad girl over the weekend.
On Friday night I had Chinese Take out - I especially ordered the Chop-Suey which is mostly veggies and it was divine, so I ate it all. Then on Saturday I had Tuna salad, but then I cheated by indulging in a flake. Saturday evening was just as bad because I had curry stew and 2 pieces of Cheesecake and wine. Sunday was just as bad. We were invited to a family lunch and I had fish soup, 2 filled pancakes (one with mince and cheese and one with chicken and green peppers), and then for desert I had two chocolate pancakes filled with banana and caramel sauce. I must say I ate the least of everyone at our table, but it was still way too much for someone trying to lose 17kgs. So basically I spoiled all the progress I made in the week. Ah well. today is the start of another week.
I have realised this one thing: that I LOVE food. Almost more than life itself.
Current Wieght: 87 kg
Goal Weight: 70 kg
Progress: 0 kg
As you can see, no progress. Okay, Okay I have to admit I was a very bad girl over the weekend.
On Friday night I had Chinese Take out - I especially ordered the Chop-Suey which is mostly veggies and it was divine, so I ate it all. Then on Saturday I had Tuna salad, but then I cheated by indulging in a flake. Saturday evening was just as bad because I had curry stew and 2 pieces of Cheesecake and wine. Sunday was just as bad. We were invited to a family lunch and I had fish soup, 2 filled pancakes (one with mince and cheese and one with chicken and green peppers), and then for desert I had two chocolate pancakes filled with banana and caramel sauce. I must say I ate the least of everyone at our table, but it was still way too much for someone trying to lose 17kgs. So basically I spoiled all the progress I made in the week. Ah well. today is the start of another week.
I have realised this one thing: that I LOVE food. Almost more than life itself.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Monday Weigh In
Starting Weight: 87 kg
Current Wieght: 87 kg
Goal Weight: 70 kg
Progress: 0 kg
As you can see I have not made any progress so far. I am starting with a 5 day detox and then a healthy balanced diet with the tips Nikki gave me as well as some other I have gatehered from my readers. I will be doing the following as part of the healthy diet plan:
8 glasses of water per day
No Caffeine, No Alcohol
Only limited amounts of brown sugar
Breakfast each and every day upon waking
No refined sugars, starches or white bread
Limited carbohydrates
Lots of veggies
Fruit & Nuts
No gassy drinks
Diluted fruit juice
Lots of lean proteiens
Low fat milk
Low fat Cheese
Very Limited amounts of spices and flavourants
A glass of water before each meal
Exercise at least three times per week for at least 45 min
Muscle toning to excelarate resting metabolic rate
AB crunches
Wish me luck!!! Jahni, I would love to hear from you. Hope you are hanging in there.
We have to get our sexy back!!!
WTF???
I got my period on Friday. Seriously WTF is going on? It's right smack bang in the middle of my cycle on CD 14 and I am taking Climen at the moment, so it's right in the middle of the packet where I switch from Estrogen (the white pills) to Progesterone (the pink pills). Something is seriously not lekker, and the sooner I get to see the gynae on the 27th the better!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Diet Dilemma
Okay, I will admit the diet is not going so well. I cut out all sugars during the day but by night time I am ready to commit murder if I don't get sugar into my body fast enough. And it's bad. Think severe Cocaine addiction and then you might get a very slight idea of how I feel when I get home. The past 2 evenings I caved, and that only makes it worse, so I know I have to stop the vicious cycle somehow.
This is my diet diary since Tuesday:
Breakfast: Weet bix, hot water, sweetener.
Snack: 1 cup Veggie soup
Lunch: Wholewheat Peanut butter sandwich
Dinner: Grilled lamb chop, sweet potato, steamed veggies
Cheat: a Tex
Wednesday
Breakfast: Weetbix, hot water, sweetener.
Lunch: Low GI seed bread with ham and cheese
Dinner: 1 Chicken breast (cooked in woolies sauce), pumkin, peas, rice.
Cheat: 2 Koeksisters and a piece of droe wors
The thing is this, I am not eating that much food, but I am eating the wrong foods.
Check out this blogpost at Fertile Healthy:
http://www.fertilehealthy.com/blog/2009/07/08/im-so-over-that/
It's a lot easier said than done to change your whole eating lifestyle.
One thing that I don't want to use as an excuse, but it is the naked truth, is that DH will never ever compromise his rys, vleis and aartapels for a whole food diet. He also loves his snacks like chips, sweets and coke/tab, and I have tried but failed miserably to conform him. But I am going to try my best to at least eat a bit more healthy in the future. and of course I need to get to the gym!!!
Jahni, I would love to be your diet buddy!!! I think we should weigh in weekly and keep track of our diets, exercise and subsequent progress?
This is my diet diary since Tuesday:
Breakfast: Weet bix, hot water, sweetener.
Snack: 1 cup Veggie soup
Lunch: Wholewheat Peanut butter sandwich
Dinner: Grilled lamb chop, sweet potato, steamed veggies
Cheat: a Tex
Wednesday
Breakfast: Weetbix, hot water, sweetener.
Lunch: Low GI seed bread with ham and cheese
Dinner: 1 Chicken breast (cooked in woolies sauce), pumkin, peas, rice.
Cheat: 2 Koeksisters and a piece of droe wors
The thing is this, I am not eating that much food, but I am eating the wrong foods.
Check out this blogpost at Fertile Healthy:
http://www.fertilehealthy.com/blog/2009/07/08/im-so-over-that/
It's a lot easier said than done to change your whole eating lifestyle.
One thing that I don't want to use as an excuse, but it is the naked truth, is that DH will never ever compromise his rys, vleis and aartapels for a whole food diet. He also loves his snacks like chips, sweets and coke/tab, and I have tried but failed miserably to conform him. But I am going to try my best to at least eat a bit more healthy in the future. and of course I need to get to the gym!!!
Jahni, I would love to be your diet buddy!!! I think we should weigh in weekly and keep track of our diets, exercise and subsequent progress?
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Dear Gillian (aka Nikki)
I just did a whole post and it blooody disapeared!!
Anyhow, I was saying that I ate a whole weetbix this morning for breakfast. (Yay)
Someone just came into my office and offered me a cup of fresh home made vegetable soup.
You did say breakfast was the MOST IMPORTANT meal of the day, so should I or shouldn't I?
Anyhow, I was saying that I ate a whole weetbix this morning for breakfast. (Yay)
Someone just came into my office and offered me a cup of fresh home made vegetable soup.
You did say breakfast was the MOST IMPORTANT meal of the day, so should I or shouldn't I?
Monday, July 6, 2009
I am FAT!!!!!
This is not me in the pic, but I kinda look like the LHS and want to look like the RHS.
I saw a few pictures of myself over the weekend and I was HORRIFIED to see how fat I am!!!!
I am huge!!!! Even my face doesn't look like me!!! I am an obese person!!!
I weigh 87 kg and I am 1.74m in length.
I want to weigh 70 kg, so I have 17 kg to lose. You might think 17kg is not that bad, but tell that to a PCOS patient who has Insulin Resistance. It's like climbing Mount Everest. I used to wear size 36/38 clothes, and now I am wearing size 40/42. I picked up a lot of weight since TTC and I have lost some of it after the second m/c, but I fear it might be creeping back on. I want to be the same woman I was on my wedding day, which was already overweight, but at least I looked okay. The best weight I have ever been as an adult was 62kg, but then I was exercising every single day, and eating much healthier than I am now. People were telling me that I was too slim, so I know getting there again will be a bit of a far cry, but if I can just get back to 70.
So, I am going to keep a food diary, so that I can keep track of what I am eating.
Here goes:
Monday, 6 July 2009
Breakfast - Nothing
8:00
Hot Chocolate (I know!!! We bring our own coffee and tea to work and my coffee is finito)
9:00
One Peanut butter and syrup sandwich (white bread) & tea
Lunch
13:00
Croissant with chicken mayo salad filling and guava juice - eaten on the go, in the car.
1 X Metformin tablet taken with the meal.
13:30
Tea
15:00Tea
18:00
Dinner
2 pieces of baked fish, one whole avo and a baked potato
one custard slice that hubby bought and brought home (I just couldn't waste it!)
A glass of Tab (We always drink Tab instead of coke, and I drink sweetner in my coffee and tea)
1x Metformin tablet taken wih the meal
I will post a pic tomorrow of my fat cheeks for you all to stare at, and then hopefully in three months time we can look at it again and go, "Wow, look how fat you WERE!!!" Edited to add:
I remembered the camera but forgot the USB connection at home!!!
Anyone with any weight loss or exercises tips, please feel free to comment. I am desperate here and open to any suggestions, even lipo.
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